School yard insult deflection could just be some of the best advice. I never realized how much of my world was being poisoned by my own toxicity. The negativity of my own mind is reflected back at me in any situation.
I gave myself a challenge. No matter how bad I wanted yell, cus, or just complain in general I needed to keep my smile and move on. Now I’m not saying I bottled everything thing up and its building inside. I’ve just been doing my best to express myself as positively as possible and looked for healthier more productive ways to vent.
I’ve paid special attention to my tone and to make sure im looking through others eyes when I do need to say something. When I’m feeling what ever at the end of the day I’ve been writing and posting here to help pull it of my chest.
Now I am human and far from perfect so I slip. It’s usually for the dumbest reason but I do. Luckily I have an amazing friend who checks me and helps keep me straight. When I see its happening I’m able to reflect and handle things better.
I feel that it’s definitely bringin
g back some positive paybacks for sure. My job is so much easier and I’m performing so much better. My Best friend I feel genuinely wants to be around me, and the demons that haunt my mind are a little more peaceful.
I’m definitely seeing that what I put out directly effects what I am getting back. I know I have a long way to go in becoming who I want to be but I feel this is an important lesson to learn on the way.
I.M. Renascitur 