Abstract thoughts

Don’t read into this. I don’t want you to think to much take it for random words from a stranger. I’m caught inside my head the thoughts that bring me happiness are the very same that torment me. I’ve built this expectation of what life could be and I sometimes forget that it’s all internal. I open my eyes and I’m back to reality back to where nothing exist. I’m at peace with where I am at this moment that does not mean I want to stay.